This is supposed to be one of my journal entries for Theatre Class, but then I thought that I could share this with you.

The first time I entered the class I knew I would be in at least one misunderstanding with any of my classmates. Of course, it’s natural in the workplace. I was prepared to dislike them, and I was prepared to dislike the class. I knew I was going to get a position I never wanted, and I knew it was going to be very difficult. It even came to my mind to just drop the class. The first time I met my committee, I knew I wouldn’t be able to handle them very well since this is my first time to work for a production. The first time I read the script, it didn’t excite me very much. The first time I met the teacher, well, I thought he was a student so I guess it also prepared me to dislike him? :)

As time went on, I made mistakes and learned from them. I already made excuses whenever I feel hopeless for a day or two, but I get my strength back again. It’s weird and awesome, you know. Theatre is my strength sucker and at the same time my strength booster. I get ill and tired because of theatre work, but then whenever I go back to do my job, it is also theatre work that keeps me going. Somehow it doesn’t make any sense, but that’s just it. Theatre is much more different to what you expected it to be.

I am trying to love what I am doing, and gradually I am loving it. Of course, there are times when I hate it, especially when the deadlines are near and when I make mistakes that I can’t seem to correct. It makes me lose my sanity, but I am very well blessed with supportive leaders who willingly put me on rehab every once in a while.
And of course, my favourite ones: my committee! I am happy to have them, of course. They do their best, and I see it. They do not keep anything from me. When they hate something about me, they tell it to me directly without any pretension. I was shocked the first time I gained disapproval from them, but then that’s a good thing since it means that they care about the work we are doing and about the whole production. They know what I need as a leader, and I thank God that even after knowing all my weaknesses they still accept me. Well, who wouldn’t be emotional after knowing that? Anyway, our work and play are balanced. After work, we goof around like crazy along with other backstage people. And when I say crazy I really mean crazy. I am so gonna miss that after this semester.

It’s odd. I am writing about this already, but the play has not even staged yet. Well, you learn from the process. It’s in the middle. In the end, I’ll make more realizations, and hopefully, a grade that is not 5.0 or DRP. Heehee.
I know some people from my class are reading this! Hey you, why are you snooping around here, huh? :D Haha just kidding. Feel free. :D

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