I feel like doing some sort of a “life detox”.

Right now, I feel the most miserable. I am jobless, (nearly) friendless, unmotivated, unhealthy, broke, unattractive, socially awkward and foolish (which, to me, means being a lukewarm Christian). It’s also been a while since I last took a good look at my vision board for 2012. I just figured, wow… I was being really materialistic when I made my vision board. Most of the pictures in there were brands of electronics, clothing, makeup and skincare products. There were very few pictures that represented my desire to grow personally, socially, and spiritually this year.

I admit some things happened which made me kind of break down emotionally, and that distracted me from everything I was focusing on. I wanted to finally finish a Project 365 after several attempts every year, but I stopped it (again). I’m in this reading challenge where I’m supposed to read 25 books of different genres, and I have only read 4 (currently 3 books behind now). I haven’t started playing badminton, and these days I don’t exercise regularly and kept eating sweets and cheesy things. I gained weight again! I haven’t practice any skill that I’ve been rusty on all skills (I guess except for singing). Acquiring more skills has always been so important to me, so I’m not sure why all this is happening.

Also, my plans of transferring to SFU… I’m scared about it because I’m not sure if I will make the deadline. They need my final grades already; I haven’t taken an exam yet. I can do something about that, can’t I?

I think really need to refocus. I want to do some sort of a clean-up now that the first quarter of the year is over. I want to get rid of things that keep getting in the way of my personal growth and happiness. I want to stay away from things that could be potentially distracting as well (like Tumblr and Facebook lol). I want to just do productive things more often now.

It’s nice I’ve noticed these problems because otherwise I would continue being this way. I’m also glad that my schedule is going to change very soon because the semester is ending. This means I can change my daily routine and do more activities. Hopefully I will be able to find a nice casual job, save money, exercise, read more books and meet my friends more often after my exams.

I hope I stay on track this time. Keep focused, everyone :)

2 Chronicles 15:7 says “But you, take courage! Do not let your hands be weak, for your work shall be rewarded.”