Hi, I'm Chiui dela Cruz. I like books, Korean music, Asian languages, cat GIFs, the internet, pasta, lettuce, the smell of coffee and plastic (a.k.a the smell of airplanes), thrift stores, hipster jokes, and coolness. I asked love to follow my steps. I asked love to come in through the front door.
I liked him. Who doesn’t? As I was on the stairs, I told Love, “Won’t you please give me sign?” I prepared to look back. “If he would use this staircase and talk to me, I will allow myself to like him.”
I looked back. I saw a huge crowd of people. The guy isn’t there. Nope. He wasn’t.
I walked even more slowly. “Again.”
I looked back again, with the hopes that he might just be talking to a friend and then after that he would use the stairs. He wasn’t there. So I moved on.
“No hope. No hope. No hope. No hope…” I continuously murmured to myself while I was walking.
And then I heard a familiar voice calling me, “Chiui!”
It was him. He said this with a wave of his hand. He used the back door of the building. I was startled. With a surprised look on the face, I waved back.
Step by step by step by step… We walked together step by step.
So does that mean that if you invite love to come in it doesn’t follow you, but it surprises you with its own entrance through your heart? Isn’t that pretty annoying? Aren’t we told to knock first before we enter if we’re about to enter a place which isn’t our property? Does that mean that love has no manners? Or is it just part of love’s sweetness?
So does that mean that love only comes in when we do not expect it to come? When we’re unprepared? When we’ve already given up?
I hate this. I seriously hate this. I enjoyed the walk, but not liking someone. I do not wish to continue.
Because I asked for a sign and I got an answer. This is not love! I wonder how long I am going to wait just to know what true love is. I have the urge to write about it. I wish to describe it. And then keep it.
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I think thats another Chiui peice of writing, and if so, it was just marvelous! great job!
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By Jordan on 07.31.09 8:17 pm | Permalink
Awww…. all you stuff seems so real.
Very good. It made cry. =(
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By Nagashiko on 07.31.09 11:31 pm | Permalink
Aww Chiui! Is this true to life? I don’t know… I feel that love is taken unprepared. I don’t really know… *also scared*
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By tiff k on 08.01.09 12:29 am | Permalink
Love can be pretty selfish sometimes. I guess you shouldn’t have to ask for love, but I think it’s a part of it being so sweet.
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By Georgina on 08.01.09 1:04 am | Permalink
I am not an expert on love. I have had my heart broken a lot of times already. I have asked for a sign.. but failed to see one.
I do believe that love comes unexpectedly. I don’t know what others would say about love. But it happened to me unexpectedly because he came when I wasn’t asking for anyone at all.
Maybe, the way love enters your life differs from one person to another. It may be brought by signs or it may come unexpectedly.
P.S
New URL. My subdomain got fixed. Kindly update my link. Sorry for the hassle, Chiui. I hope it wouldn’t be too much. Anyway, thanks a lot!
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By Luna on 08.01.09 1:06 am | Permalink
Hmmm…well, love has a lot of surprises in store. It never really follows rules or conventions when you welcome it. It’s the reason why we’re told not to look for love but to patiently wait for it. Love has his own ways. I don’t believe we are ever unprepared for love, because God has given us endless capacity to love and be loved, maybe it’s that sometimes we fail to recognize love for what it is, or refuse because it is not what we want. I will pray for you on this one. May you be friends with love soon!
*hugs*
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By Lianne on 08.01.09 3:10 am | Permalink
wow, that was really love. I also believe that love is even more romantic when it is less expected!
Good luck to your lovellife!
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By stevevhan on 08.01.09 6:48 am | Permalink
aaawww. that post was touching.. love, love, love… when can i ever understand it.
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By Mikyu on 08.01.09 8:20 am | Permalink
That’s so pretty. And such a nice way of expressing things.
And I’ve always thought that love wanders in unexpected. I think it appears when we least expect it to, when we’ve given up looking and just given up, it’ll appear. I don’t think you can find love if you go hunting for it.
Love is just such an enigma!
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By Tasha on 08.01.09 2:03 pm | Permalink
Love is when you constantly keep thinking about them, dream about them
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By Seng Hoo on 08.02.09 1:03 am | Permalink
it made me think about someone i miss you badly. it seem really true.
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By Charmoii on 08.02.09 1:52 am | Permalink
there are a lot of ways wherein love can take its place, maybe that’s one or not. i cant judge. but i also hate the confusion that it brings.
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By riish on 08.02.09 4:07 am | Permalink
Love is unpredictable right? And it always surprise you in a very odd way, I think ? Lmao. Another great post Ate Chiui! Keep it up!
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By Jamie on 08.02.09 4:12 am | Permalink
AIGOO! hahaha! un pala un ah. hahahaha. LAGOT KA NA! that “Love” will haunt you, beware! hehehe. i know you won’t give in that fast, i trust you enough, knowing that you have changed a lot.
next time.. wag ka nang mahiya sakin. WHOO! love ya bespren.^^
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By Keiti on 08.16.09 6:56 am | Permalink
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